Hi Aakash,
I wonder what must be your reaction once you receive this letter. We could have directly talked over phone. But frankly, its so wierd that I didn't have the guts to.
Aakash, I don't know what you feel about me at this point of time, but what you really need to know is that I don't think about you the way you think I do. I don't hate you, I never did. Hate is a very strong word, I don't even dislike you for whatever happened between us. I was definitely angry, but gradually I have realised that it wasn't your fault alone.
We got married after a relationship of 5 long years. Friendship was the first relationship that we shared. I wonder how it vanished over years.
Its been seven years since we are not living together. And its now that I have turned back to see what went wrong. We did not cheat. None of us was abusive. Then who was at fault? You or me? Or both?
I guess we both were at fault, equally. We share the same mistakes. Our bond was never weak, our egos grew stronger.
Anyways, there's one more thing that we share equally, which is not a mistake. Something we both cherish. Something we both love equally. Gyaan.
Only once a week you get a chance to see him. I know it's difficult for you. You never fought for his custody, once I said he is going to stay with me.
Now, for his sake only I ask you: Can we live together? Can we reunite?
I know it's really wierd and sounds crazy but yes I am asking you this thing.
Gyaan is 16 now. I don't know if you have observed it when you are with him, but his behavior is concerning me. I feel he doesn't believes in love, family, relationship. And I find us guilty for this. We have set this example for him. We always fought in front of him and finally just split.
Aakash, I don't want my son to be that way. I don't want him to be cold and emotionless. I want him to believe in love, in marriage, in family. I do. It didn't work between us I know, but I don't want Gyaan to live that way. He needs to be a better person. Better than both of us.
I know we have moved on. Seven years is a long time. Society too will make a fuss about it. But, for his sake, give it a thought. We could not be a good couple, but we can try to be good parents.
Gauri.
